Who else out there has a child leaving for college this week/month? I know there are other mommas and dads out there that are feeling pretty much the way I am right now. It's such a strange collection of emotions: excitement, joy and hope along with sadness, a twang of loneliness and longing and prayers that they come back to you someday as a successful and amazing adult. You want them to know that you care but you don't want them to see you crying because well, we are happy for all their accomplishments and growth. Yet inside our hearts we are still thinking about that little baby who used to need us so much. 18 years went by in the blink of an eye and I am having a very emotional time with this chapter of my life (and hers.) While my heart has been on this roller coaster and all these emotions have been stirred up from the last 18 years, I found something I have been looking for. My purpose. I had been reading about our “why” in life, all the things we believe and why we do things that inspire us. I had been on a mission to pin point my own “why” to give my life a purpose and I just couldn't seem to nail down why I ended up in the photography industry and why I love photographing people and why I started this business until this baby girl of mine picked a college that would put her far away from home. I started telling myself that I cannot possibly be the only mom on earth who who secretly cried in the closet after their kid picked a school that wouldn't be a hop skip and jump away. And that's when it hit me: pick up the camera! Capture right now! These are our tickets back to this time. This is why I do what I do. Tickets to get back in time. Tickets to hold on to our babies. Tickets to hold on to our parents, all our joys and loves and happy things! While time moves on, we want to keep every minute close to our hearts and what better way than a photograph. That word alone is a miracle. I am a memory keeper. I have a purpose here now. To give you all the magic of stopping time!
We leave tomorrow morning to move her to a new state, a new city, a new life. She loves our Ocean City NJ so much so there was no better place for her high school senior photos than OCNJ. I hope the ocean calls her back home after she earns her degree. Or better yet I hope she misses me and comes back to start a new chapter here so I can capture more of her. Sorry to get all sappy, but well, it's just been one of those summers. I have lots to catch up on and lots to share but I am taking time off for her and I right now. I will return emails and messages soon. Love you all and thanks for listening and for being a part of my purpose.